Where have you been Lady?

Welp, i all but forgot I'd set up this 'blog'...Oops

I've been working, if you must know. For the last three months exactly come Nov 5th. It's been a trip. Called on Friday, interviewed on Wednesday, second interview the following Tuesday and working the following Monday. The rest as they say, is history.

As for life, not VERY much has changed in that respect. I'm still learning or trying to adjust to just living. Having no must-be-completed immediately goals staring me down but the ever-present ''Cannot-fail-at-Life'' 'goal' if you can call it that is still here.

So, the plan right now is to live. Save money but have a stocked fridge, lol (first thoughts are about food :P). Live and enjoy what I've worked so hard for and try my best to NOT FAIL AT LIFE.

In Other News...

Nothing to do with University or work, but regradless, it must be shared.

Now, I love me some freeness, so how happy was I when I wakled into WHSmith for my monthly magagines and I stop short next to a Marie CLaire stand offerinc Ciate polish! Full Size product! Uh, can you say extatic?? hehe

Looking over at the other full stand, it is jsut alive with plastic! Plastic on the magazine stand = FREEBIES!! = happy Fen ;) But alas, my budget was about £6, lol so I was only able to by 3, and this is what I got: 

Ciate Polish in Perple Sherbet, Benefit: "that gal" Primer, POREfessional Pore Minimizer (7.5ml)

Next month, July 5th to be exact, my budget will have to be bigger, as I intend to get all the Glamour freebies but thing I'll pass on the mascaras. Honeslty think they should ease up on the mascarsas. Really, how much can one person use. I have two sitting, looking at me not near half empty, so sad :P

At Least I Got My References in Order

Yap, sent emails out to lecturers for academic refences today. Should come back with 'yes' answers. After all, I am amazing :D lol

Life after....LIFE

For six years, university was my LIFE. Getting there, loan rejections, getting through (in the allocated 4 yrs, dont get twisted it didn't take six years to get through ni, lol) moving countries and then house FOUR TIMES IN FOUR YEARS, the disappointments and realisations about peolpe, places and myself were absolutely everything, now it’s over.

I finished University (sat my final exam) on Thursday, May 31st. I started feeling useles some time between Sunday and Monday after, so say, exactly two days of excitement and FREEDOM!!!!!!!! Then the crash. WTF is that?! All I wanted when I was neck deep in coursewok was a holiday and now I have it, I’m freaking out!!!!!!! I cannot relax!!!!!

Do you know why I’m freaking out? Becuse I’m me. Because I’m in a foreign country, on a visa with a dealine. Working out ways to extend it have dealines on them as well so in essence, I’ve gone from academic deadline to flipping life-altering deadline. I’m freaking out because my part-time position has been in a bad way since the entrance of a new manager but I was able to ignore it because uni kept me seriously occupied and acted as a set of blinders (read ‘excuses’) to justify my £0.00 bank balance.

Now it feels like it’s D-day every day, like I should be doing things, big important things, but do I not deserve some time off? I do. I know I do so why can’t I just relax and take the time. I literally have 24 hrs, everyday, during which I’m obligated to do absolutley nothing but wake up or at least keep breathing so people know I’m still in the land of the living and do somethnig around the house to keep the peace (u know how folk get when u get lazy round the house, parents and otherwise, sh*t can get real, real fast, lol).

Welcome to the life of a control freak with nothing to control….(help!)